It should never start
The way it started I felt my nerves going down,
I was so much into you that I never realized
I have my own existence too.
I keep drowning in the ocean of your love
I never gave it a thought that I could be unloved
The time I realized, it was too late.
The water was not in my hands anymore, as it was to be
My trust was shaking my heart was breaking
I was feeling down the way it was going
I kept yelling at my heart to stop
I was left with a crowd inside me like a late night modal shop
People were coming and going from my heart,
Like an ant on the empty floor but
You were always there blocking others way by sitting on the entrance door
Neither coming in and nor going out
Making me feel it’s not worthy to shout.
I kept asking you to come in but you always shown me the way that you are going out
I don’t understand, “why your decisions were not that loud?”
You taught me how to live when I was surviving
You became my food when I was starving
Then what in this universe asked you to stop
Where did you find the reason to leave and wallop?
When I decided to finally move on
You came back to my life for keep going on
I asked multiple times, you to stay
You were so close to me, but heartily far away.
I was left with the broken pieces of my heart
And that’s when I decided,
it should never start.
by Anvesha Sisodiya